Thinking Out Loud...

Original Posting Date: January 1, 2007 Wandering through life’s maze, here I am today. When I look back, I do have some regrets, some heartbreaks, some happy moments, moments that made me feel everything is worth living in this world, moments when I wished life should just stop because there couldn’t be anything more perfect than this very moment… Moments that told me I have a higher purpose in life. Moments that told me there is a presence in my life, my guardian in this journey… Moments that told me my heart knows more than what my mind can ever comprehend... Moments when I felt I was on the top of the world and nothing is impossible for me in this world. Moments when I quietly prayed to God to help me through difficult times as things were beyond my control… Moments when I felt life is extremely transient, and nobody stays with you forever. Not even the person you were counting on the most... There were moments when I made my decisions with my heart, in the spur of the moment, re...

Original Posting Date: March 5, 2007 When will I be fully happy? What is happiness after all? Is it a state of mind? Or is it the games our mind plays to keep us going? It does not take much for a child to feel happy. A weird face, a song, or an amusing gesture makes him burst into peels of laughter. Why is then that as people grow up, the happy state seems more and more distant? Is the state of happiness more like the state of intoxication? The more you get used to it, the more you need the next time -to feel high. Every day I pray to god to keep my near and dear ones and me happy. That is not too much to ask from God I guess. However, everyday as I ask the same thing from God, a question pops up in mind -What will it take to keep people happy? When I was in school, I prayed to God very naively- I told him every time before an exam that if he helps me through this one, I would never ask for anything else in my life. It did not take me much time to realize that things do not work th...