Moments...

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Original Posting Date: January 1, 2007

Wandering through life’s maze, here I am today. When I look back, I do have some regrets, some heartbreaks, some happy moments, moments that made me feel everything is worth living in this world, moments when I wished life should just stop because there couldn’t be anything more perfect than this very moment…
Moments that told me I have a higher purpose in life. Moments that told me there is a presence in my life, my guardian in this journey…
Moments that told me my heart knows more than what my mind can ever comprehend...
Moments when I felt I was on the top of the world and nothing is impossible for me in this world. Moments when I quietly prayed to God to help me through difficult times as things were beyond my control…
Moments when I felt life is extremely transient, and nobody stays with you forever. Not even the person you were counting on the most...
There were moments when I made my decisions with my heart, in the spur of the moment, regretted, and wished I should have thought with my mind. There were moments when I felt I thought only with my mind, and did not ask my heart…
Moments when I knew I was not being myself and was just flowing with the tide. Moments when I felt I got my control back and started to steer my own course of life…
I have met people who I think came into my life to steer my ship through rough seas. I feel they were angels disguised as people…
Moments when I did not know what I was getting into. Moments when I knew that God made me choose the more difficult path, because he had bigger plans for me…
Moments when I worried about the future. Moments when I looked back and thought I worried too much for no reason at all, things were not so tough after all…
Moments when I was too afraid to love, because I was obsessing about ‘what if’…
Moments when I was hurting so much inside, I felt nothing could make that hurt go away. Moments when I thought time was the best medicine for every hurt feeling…
Moments when I wanted something so bad, I thought my life could not go on if I did not get it. Moments when I realized I do not need things to live life, life goes on no matter what…

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